Human Canvases - Kat
Next up on Human Canvases (and nice enough to do their own write up!): Kat!
I will start with the longest tattoo I have, my arm. Music is my life. And in every genre you find those songs that really are personal and you fall in love with. The top "verse" is Our Broken View from Oak Lawn, Illinois. They wrote a song called New Day. 3 years ago my parents got divorced. I moved in with my mom and lost connection with my dad cause I didn't stay with him. I have been battling since to keep contact but it's hard. Times get depressing and I cry. These guys constantly remind me that, "it's ok today is my last day, it's alright tonight I'll be fine. And I'll still stand holding on. And I'll still stand holding on." Then as the years go on I discovered Marina City from Chicago Illinois. The song was Oh Chicago. My friends started trying to understand the pain I was going through and how violent it was getting. Verbal abuse from your own dad is horrible. They had a verse that went, " I'm alright, I'm just ok wishing on shooting stars have gotten old anymore and I just got one more prayer left in me. I won't use it on my death bed I'll die so you can stop crying" and this hit me harder then home. Cause there are days when I feel like I'm better off dead. I try everything but never have my dad back. He will never be there to walk his only girl down the isle. Won't be there if I ever have a kid. And sometimes I'd rather be dead then not have a working relationship with him. Which leads into the last verse that my friend in Red Tide Rising from Denver, Colorado wrote for me. This part is like if I were to die, I'd be the ghost in my dads dreams. "The ghost I shall present,Neither here nor there, Will ever haunt you,So don't be scared,I'm here because I will,Always protect your heart But for now, the darkness Will always play a part." And that's a reminder that no matter how bad my day is tomorrow is a new day. No matter if my dad is here or there I'm just a memory. But I have friends and music to get me through life
The Honda logo: my dad was diagnosed with stage 3 Cancer in April. Growing up we raced dirt bikes. We were a Honda family. Those weekends were family time. And that's my tattoo for my dad. He may be crappy and we may fight but he is forever my dad.
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